Chapter Twelve

“Nick, we can’t walk back to the hotel from here.” Jamie said as Nick looked over at her laughing.

“I know, we’ll walk a little while then get a cab.” Nick said as he put his hands in his pockets and looked over at her, “You know?”

“What?”

“You’re even more beautiful then you were when we were together.” Nick said as Jamie started to blush and looked away shyly, “I mean you were beautiful then but now -”

“Okay.” Jamie said as she looked down at her feet as they were walking slowly down the sidewalk, “Do you ever think about what it could have been?”

“The baby?”

“Yeah.”

“Yeah. I think about it all the time.” Nick said as they stopped at the end of the block, waiting for the light to change so they could cross the street, “Do you?”

“Yeah, I do.” Jamie said, “I think it would have been a little boy.”

“Me too.” Nick said, as Jamie looked over at him, “That or a little girl. One or the other.”

“Yeah.” Jamie said as she rolled her eyes and they started to cross the street, “So you’re living alone?”

“Yeah. All alone, not that I’m ever home really.” Nick said, “What about you?”

“Yeah, I have my own place.” Jamie said, “I live in Orlando now. I was just in Tampa visiting my parents and had to leave with them to take care of while I was gone.”

“Oh. I didn’t know you lived there.”

“Never asked Mike?”

“I don’t talk about you with Mike very much.” Nick said, “Once in a while I’ll mention you and he usually changes the subject.”

“Most of the time when I talk to him, he tells me to take you back.” Jamie said as Nick looked over at her, “That you were miserable without me. That you were lonely without me.”

“All true.” Nick said as he started to laugh a little and looked down, “I regret what I made you do.”

“Really?” Jamie asked as she looked over at Nick.

“Yeah, I do.” Nick said, “I wish I didn’t make you do it. We could have hidden it. I sit some nights and I just think about what you said to me that day.”

“What?”

“That I wanted you to kill a part of us.”

“You did.”

“I know.”

“We made it, together and you wanted to kill it.”

“It’s not that I wanted to kill it, just I got scared and at the time it was a big deal because there’s no way I could have had a baby. There was just no way, and I took the coward’s way out.”

“Yeah you did.” Jamie said as she looked over at him, “I could have taken care of it on my own. Without your help.”

“I wouldn’t have let you.” Nick said, “I’m not just gonna turn may back on my kid and -”

“But you wanted to kill it.” Jamie said as Nick stopped and turned her around so that they were looking at each other.

“I didn’t want to kill it. Think about it, it was best at the time. It was stupid but at the time it was the best solution. If you hadn’t of had that done, there would be no script of a movie that you wrote and you sold and it’s going to be a huge movie. You wouldn’t be working for Disney writing scripts either. You’d be following me from city to city with a baby.”

“He’d be almost 2.” Jamie said looking down and Nick closed his eyes and pulled her up closer to him. He wrapped his arms around her, hugging her tightly. Jamie just stood there, letting him hug her until she finally rested her head against his shoulder and put her arms around him.

“I’m sorry.” Nick whispered as Jamie moved her head and looked at him, “I’m really sorry.”

“You hurt me.” Jamie said, looking at him. Nick didn’t move his eyes. He just kept looking straight back at her.

“I’m sorry.” Nick said, “I - I got scared and I thought it was the best thing at the time and in a way it was. But I wish you hadn’t of had it done. I wish I’d never lost you and I wish that we were together now with a little boy or a little girl, but we’re not.”

“No, we’re not.” Jamie said, looking him in the eyes.

“And I’m sorry.”

“Nick -”

“Yeah?”

“Stop apologizing.” Jamie said as she smiled a little, “It’s not going to change anything because -”

“But -”

“- I still love you -”

“- I need -” Nick said as he paused, “You what?”

“I still love you.” Jamie said as she looked down, “It’s the reason I had to sneak to see you so you wouldn’t see me. It’s the reason I ran off with that guy and got married all of a sudden. He reminded me of you in a way and -”

“But he was a former rodeo -”

“Shut up Nick.” Jamie said as she laughed a little and looked back up at him, “He reminded me of you but he didn’t take your memory away.”

“I’m so unforgettable.” Nick said as Jamie smiled at him, “I love your smile.”

“You used to tell me that.”

“I still do.” Nick said as he smiled, “I still love you too.”

“You do?”

“I never stopped. It’s the reason I wrote those songs. It’s the reason I wanted to do a solo album because I wanted it to be from me to you and I wanted to win you back or atleast show you how much I love you. I thought maybe you’d get the point, that I love you and I never stopped and - “Nick said when Jamie leaned up, pressing her lips against his gently, and began to kiss him slowly. Nick just stood there in shock until he began to kiss her back. “And damn.”

“That was nice.” Jamie said, smiling as Nick looked at her and took a deep breath.

“Yeah, it was.”

“I’m tired of walking.”

“Wanna go back to the hotel?”

“Yes.” Jamie said as Nick smiled. He took her hand and walked over, flagging down a taxi and they both got in, sitting next to each other. The taxi started to take them back to the hotel and the whole ride there, Nick and Jamie sat there looking at each other, smiling. Jamie reached over one time, taking Nick’s hand and holding it and Nick just smiled in return.

Finally, after reaching the hotel, they stepped out of the taxi and made their way into the hotel, holding hands and noticed that a few fans were sitting in the lobby. Nick just rolled his eyes and started walking faster with Jamie until he reached the elevator and they both stepped inside.

“Damn.” Nick said as he took a deep breath, “Damn fans sitting in the lobby.”

“Probably didn’t recognize me.” Jamie said as Nick started to laugh a little.

“You’d be surprised.” Nick said, “After we broke up, there were a lot of fans telling me that they liked you because, well you know a lot of them knew who you were.”

“Really?”

“Yeah. So tomorrow it’ll be online that we are back together.” Nick said as Jamie started to laugh.

“What makes them think that?” Jamie asked as Nick looked at her and she smiled, “So what’s gonna happen when we reach our floor?”

“Umm well I need to make a few business calls.” Nick said as pressed his lips together.

“Yeah, me too.” Jamie said, “Um after you finish your calls you can come over and we can talk some more.”

“Oh okay.” Nick said as he nodded his head a little, smiling when the elevator door opened. They both walked out of it and down the hallway, not saying anything until Jamie stopped at her door and looked at Nick, “I’ll be over in a little bit.”

“Okay.” Jamie said smiling as she opened up her door and walked in.

“Whoa.” Nick said as he took his cell phone out and started dialing Mike’s number as he walked down to his room.

“Hello?”

“Oh my fucking God, you will never believe it.”

“What?” Mike asked as he started to laugh.

“Jamie. We talked and we had a good time and we kissed and I’m going back to her room in a little bit.” Nick said as he walked into his hotel room and shut the door.

“No fucking way.” Mike said, “Oh my god.”

“Yes, we talked and just dude. Damn.” Nick said as Mike started to laugh when he heard a beep.

“Hold on. I got another call.” Mike said as he put Nick on hold and answered the other line, “Hello?”

“Mike, I need your help.”

“Oh, what’s up?”

“I - uh, would it be so bad to get back with Nick?” Jamie asked, “I mean I know after everything we’ve been through just -”

“Jamie, what are you talking about?” Mike asked as he sat there smiling.

“I want Nick. I want him back.” Jamie said as she took a deep breath, pacing around the room, “We went out to eat and we talked and we talked about that and I still love him. I never stopped.”

“Okay hang on.” Mike said a she put Jamie on hold and went back to Nick’s line, “Nick?”

“Yeah dude, damn. I’m scared to go over there.” Nick said as Mike laughed.

“Why?” Mike asked, rubbing the side of his face, laughing at the tone of Nick’s voice.

“Okay, I know what’s gonna happen when I go over there. You know what’s gonna happen when I go over there and I know the look Jamie gave me when she asked did I want to come back to her room -”

“Uh huh.”

“Dude, what if I forgot how to do it?” Nick asked as Mike cracked up laughing.

“You haven’t forgotten.” Mike said, “And besides. It’s Jamie man. I know the things you told me about the two of you.”

“Yeah yeah yeah.” Nick said, “Damn.”

“Breathe.”

“True. I need oxygen.” Nick said as he took a deep breath.

“Yes you do.” Mike said, “Go breathe. Then go over and show Jamie how much you miss her.”

“Uh damn okay.” Nick said as he scratched his head, “Okay damn. Bye.”

“Bye.” Mike said as he switched to the other line, “Jamie?”

“Uhhh yeah?” Jamie asked.

“What’s wrong?” Mike asked, putting his hand over his mouth so he wouldn’t laugh.

“I’m scared that I’m doing the right thing.” Jamie said as Mike laughed, “It’s not funny Mike.”

“It is funny because Nick just called me freaking the fuck out.” Mike said, still laughing, “Just don’t worry about anything. Just do whatever. Have fun, remember, use a condom and you won’t have a reason to break up anymore. Hell double bag it.”

“You are sick.”

“Oh shut up. You know you want his ass.”

“Uh god.” Jamie said as she sat down on the edge of the bed, “Okay I really do. I so want him. Damn.”

“Then why are you talking to me? Bye!”

“Bye.” Jamie said as she hung up the phone and put her hands over her face. She stood up, walking in the bathroom and turned on the light, looking at herself in the mirror. She reached down, picking up her brush, so that she could brush her hair a little. She unbuttoned the top shirt that she had on which only left her in a tank top.

She reached down into her little make-up bag and took out her lip glosses, applying some on her lips and then smiled into the mirror.

Knock Knock

She put the lip gloss back in her little bag and looked out the bathroom door, smiling.