Chapter Five

“Another long day.” Nick said out loud to himself as he walked out of his bedroom, buttoning up his shirt. He walked by a mirror and looked at his reflection in it and smiled a little, “I don’t look half bad today.”, he said when he heard thunder outside, “Fuck it’s raining.”

Knock Knock

“Fucking Mike.” Nick bitched as he shook his head and started to run down the stairs, hearing them knock again.

Knock Knock!

“Hold on!” Nick said as he walked up to the door, opening it to see Jamie standing outside in the rain, soaked and wet, “Jamie?”

“Hey.” Jamie said as Nick looked at her and could tell that she’d been crying, “I’m sorry.”

“I’m sorry too.”

“No, I didn’t mean it.”

“That you’re sorry?”

“No, I didn’t mean what I said in the airport. I wasn’t expecting you to choose between your career and me. I just wanted to see if you really meant that you loved me.” Jamie said as she started to cry again and looked down, “And it’s not like I could have said that I was joking after that, but I didn’t mean it.”

“Why didn’t you just tell me?” Nick asked, as Jamie looked away, “Jamie?”

“I was scared to because I didn’t mean it.” Jamie said as Nick walked out of his house and out in the room, a few inches in front of her, “Then I listened to her your album.”

“If I knew about your sister, I’d never had sent it.” Nick said as Jamie looked up at him, “I talked to Mike. I was going to come by today anyway to see you.”

“And I read the thank you’s.” Jamie said as she looked back down, playing with a piece of plastic in her hands, “And I’m incomplete too.”

“How?” Nick asked as Jamie continued to look down, “How are you incomplete?”

“Because I don’t have you.” Jamie whispered as Nick looked at her, straining to her.

“What?”

“Because I don’t have you!” Jamie said as she looked up at him, “I need you in my life like you need me and your career. I haven’t been happy since we broke up except in Los Angeles last month.”

“You can have me if you want to.” Nick said as Jamie looked back down at the piece of plastic she was playing with, “I want you but I want you to make your mind up. Either you want me now or you never do.”

“I want you now.”

“What?”

“I want you now.” Jamie said as she looked back up to him, “I don’t wanna lose you again.”

“I want you too.” Nick said as he walked up closer to her, taking the piece of plastic out of her hands, and held them both, down to each other’s side, “Wanna know how much I love ya?”

“What?”

“I just took a shower and got dressed and now I’m standing in the middle of a cold thunderstorm for ya.” Nick whispered as Jamie looked up at him and smiled, “I’m sorry about your sister and her husband.”

“Yeah.” Jamie said as she looked back down, “I dunno what I’m gonna do.”

“You okay?”

“Yeah, I think so. I’m just still in shock really.”

“Is Dylan okay?”

“He woke up crying last night wanting Michelle and Michael but finally I brought him back in my room and got him back to sleep. He doesn’t really understand.” Jamie said as she started to cry again and Nick wrapped his arms around her, hugging her, “It’s just weird now.”

“Let’s go in before lightning strikes us.” Nick said as Jamie started to laugh a little and they turned around and walked back into the house, “We’re freakin’ soaked.”

“Sorry. I was scared you weren’t home so I started to leave.” Jamie said, “I didn’t think you’d be here.”

“I’m here until Monday.” Nick said, “Then I gotta leave to go to New York, but I’ll be back next weekend. I got a show here.”

“Okay.” Jamie said as Nick unbuttoned his shirt and took it off, “I’m sorry about -”

“You don’t have to apologize.” Nick said as Jamie took a deep breath and looked around, “I’m sorry for everything too.”

“So we’re gonna start over?” Jamie asked as Nick turned his head a little, looking at her, “What?”

“I don’t wanna start over. I just want to build onto what we have.” Nick said, “We’ve got a history together and memories. Why destroy that?”

“You have a point.” Jamie said, “We’ll just put the bad things behind us.”

“Yeah.” Nick said as he smiled, “Does this mean we’re engaged?”

“Because you asked me in the airport?”

“You said yes.”

“Yeah I did.” Jamie said as she started to laugh a little, “I don’t see a ring.”

“Don’t tempt me.” Nick said as he started to laugh, “I’ll wait and ask you again when you’re least expecting it.”

“Okay.” Jamie said as she looked around and down at her overalls, “I feel weird though.”

“Why?”

“Because, I’m going to be Dylan’s guardian but my sister adopted him.”

“We’re his biological parents.”

“Scary.” Jamie said as Nick started to laugh, “Yes, and now I’m going to be his guardian, like I don’t know. How do you explain that to a kid when he gets older? Be like ‘I gave you up to my sister and husband because I couldn’t take care of you but now I’m older and they died so I’m taking care of you again?’” It’s weird.”

“Yeah.” Nick said, “Because I don’t know.”

“What?”

“Who am I going to be to him?” Nick asked as Jamie looked at him, “Like just I don’t know. This is damn complicated.”

“We’ll think of something.” Jamie said as she smiled a little, “We’re really back together?”

“Yep, I think so.” Nick said as he smiled, “Feels kinda good but weird at the same time.”

“I’m glad though.”

“Me too. I think this is what’s supposed to be.”

“Me too.” Jamie said, “I don’t know if I can listen to ‘Do I Have To Cry For You’ again though.”

“It’s gonna be the second single.”

“Damn.”

“Yeah.” Nick said as he started to laugh a little and walked over to her, putting his hands on the sides of her face, cupping it, “I’m glad I’ve got you back.”

“Me too.” Jamie said as they leaned in and began to kiss each other slowly. Jamie moved her arms up around his neck, leaning in to kiss him a bit more deeply -

Ring Ring

“Ugh,” Nick growled as he gave her a quick little kiss, “Hold on a sec.”

“Okay.” Jamie said as Nick walked over to the phone and picked it up.

“Hello?” Nick asked as he looked back at Jamie smiling and she smiled back.

“What’s crack a lackin’ my brotha?” Aaron asked as Nick rolled his eyes.

“Dude, listen now’s NOT the time man.” Nick said into the phone, “I’ll call ya back later.”

“Dude, I haven’t talked to you in a week. What the hell is better than me? I’m cute. I’m lovable.”

“Jamie’s here.”

“Oh damn okay, go ahead.” Aaron said, “BE A MAN!”

“I’ll call ya back later.” Nick said as he started to laugh and hung up the phone, “Sorry.”

“It’s okay. Mike?”

“Aaron.”

“Ohhh how is he?”

“Annoying.” Nick said as Jamie started to laugh a little, “So you’re staying at home right now?”

“I think I might go home tonight. To my place.” Jamie said, “They’re supposed to have the funeral Sunday.”

“I leave on Monday.” Nick said as he rolled his eyes, “Atleast I’m here for that and all.”

“Yeah.” Jamie said, “You are.”

“Too bad you can’t come with me.”

“I have work and now I have Dylan.”

“Yeah.” Nick said as he looked around, “Fuck. I’m gonna have to tell my parents.”

“Oh god.” Jamie said as she put her hands over her face, “Hide me.”

“Oh damn, I’m gonna be slaughtered.”

“Wanna rethink this?”

“Nah, I’ll just face the consequences and bitching and tell them if they don’t like it, they can shove it.” Nick said, “I’m doing what I want to do.”

“So you’re going to tell them Dylan’s yours?” Jamie asked as Nick shrugged his shoulders, “I mean, well, anybody smart would be able to tell that he is. Especially your family.”

“Yeah, you have a point.” Nick said as he smiled, “There’s a lot of stuff we have to figure out.”

“Yeah there is.” Jamie said as Nick smiled again, “But it’s worth it I think.”

“Yeah it is.” Nick said, “It’s definitely worth it.”

“I need to talk to my parents and Michael’s parents about Dylan, like what’s going to happen. I mean he’s young enough that he’ll never remember now and what happened. He’ll be two next month.” Jamie said as Nick nodded his head, “I think he should always know who Michelle and Michael were but like me as his.. uh -”

“Mother.”

“Scary.” Jamie said as Nick started to laugh.

“Hell, you think I’m not scared? He’s my kid and I’ve never met him.”

“Want to?”

“Can I?”

“Well you know if we get together, you’re going to have to meet him eventually.” Jamie said as Nick started to laugh.

“Yeah, no better time than now.” Nick whispered as he started to laugh a little, “I can’t believe we’re finally back together.”

“I know.” Jamie said as she smiled and walked up to him, putting her arms around his neck, “But we are.”

“Yes we are.” Nick said with a smile as he leaned down and kissed her slowly.