Chapter 3

“Mommy!” yelled Megan as Samantha walked into Lizzie’s door late that afternoon.

“Hey baby, I told ya I’d be back.” said Samantha as she picked her up, “Uh you’re getting to heavy to carry.”

“Um Samantha, can I talk to you for a few minutes?” asked Lizzie.

“Sure..” said Samantha as she put Megan down, “Meg, let me go see what Mrs. Lizzie wants ok.”

“Okay mommy.” said Megan as she sat down infront of the TV with Lizzie’s daughter Brittani.

“What is it?” asked Samantha as her and Lizzie walked back into the kitchen.

“Megan asked me why didn’t she have a daddy like Brittani and Braden..” said Lizzie as Samantha looked around, “I didn’t know what to tell her.”

“Yeah… she’s never asked me that.” said Samantha.

“Well I’ve known you since she first started at the daycare.. and you’ve never said anything.” said Lizzie.

“Well.. he was my boyfreind in high school.. and he was abusive towards me and he raped me.. that’s how I got pregnant with Megan.” said Samantha.

“Oh no, I’m sorry.” said Lizzie.

“It’s okay.. I’m over it now.. but I tried to stay with him and he was just abusive and finally a friend talked me out of it and I left him. He doesn’t know where we are.” said Samantha.

“Well you should tell her something about her father. A young child like that wonders where a parent is when other children have them.” said Lizzie.

“But what do I tell her, that her father was an asshole?” asked Samantha.

“Maybe you should get in contact with him to give up his rights. That way you can tell her she doesn’t have a father.” said Lizzie.

“I don’t know if I could get in contact with him. I’ve just left that part of my life alone and I don’t want to go back there.” said Samantha as she looked away.

“Megan… why did you ask Mrs. Lizzie why you didn’t have a daddy today?” asked Samantha.

“I don’t have one.” said Megan.

“I know you don’t.” said Samantha.

“Why don’t I?” asked Megan.

“You’re too smart.” said Samantha, “No I didn’t mean it like that. Well you had a daddy but he was really mean.”

“He was mean?” asked Megan.

“Yes and he hurt us so I left him.” said Samantha, “And it’s time for you to go to bed…”

“No.” said Megan.

“Yes..” said Samantha as she put Megan up under her covers.

“Night night mommy.” said Megan as Samantha kissed her.

“Night night baby.” said Samantha as Megan hugged her, “Sleep tight..” as she turned off the light and turned on Megan’s little night light as she walked out of the room, leaving the door cracked a little.

Samantha walked down to her room, shutting the door. She walked over, taking off her jeans, leaving her in her top and panties. She crawled up on her bed and laid back, looking up at the cieling and sighed.

“Damn what a day, can we say talk a walk on memory lane dammit..” she thought as she leaned up on her right elbow, reaching in the drawer beside her bed and pulled out a little photo album. She opened it up to see the same exact picture she was looking at after she called Nick the last time. It was her, Nick and Megan just a few weeks before the earthquake incident.

“You should have never wrote that song Nick…” she thought as she put the photo album back in the drawer, closing it and laid back on the bed again. She reached for the control to cut the radio on her stereo on when a familiar song came on.

I never thought of what it cost
All of the time I might have lost
So much to gain playing it cool
l’m better cast playing the fool

“Shit..” Samantha thought as she changed channels to hear Faith Hill’s new song, “Maybe Lizzie is right.. maybe I should get in contact with Jake and get all of that taken care of…. have her last name changed to Morgan… Megan Nichole Morgan.. Megan Morgan.. that sounds fucked up… I guess it would stay Simpson until I get married…” as she started to laugh and rolled over on her stomach.

“I’m never getting married…. I’ve been alone almost 2 years and haven’t been in a relationship since… I never will be again…” she thought as she started to cry.

“Mommy…” said Megan as Samantha looked up to see Megan standing there.

“I thought you were suppose to be in bed.” said Samantha.

“I want to sleep in here.” said Megan as Samantha moved over and lifted Megan on the bed.

“Come on..” said Samantha as she put Megan under the cover.

“Mommy why are you crying?” asked Megan.

“Nothing…” said Samantha as she brushed Megan’s bangs out of her eyes, “Nothing… just go to sleep okay.” as she kissed her on the forehead.