Chapter 28

“Yeah..” said Nick as he closed his eyes trying not to cry or show that he was upset.

“Okay..” said Samantha.

“You think you did the right thing but… you don’t know how bad you hurt me.” said Nick as Samantha hit herself in the head, “I was so depressed.. I could barely finish the tour, my parents kept telling me that it happened for the best and I knew that it didn’t… I missed Megan and I really missed you. I would see girls with your haircut at the time and all, from the back and I thought it was you. It took me a while to get over that and I still haven’t really. The guys tried to set me up with girls to go out and just I couldn’t… they weren’t you and I met Amber at the video shoot and she was the first girl that I actually liked since all that took place and then she leaves because of you.” said Nick.

“I’m sorry…” said Samantha crying, “I’m really sorry…”

“You know what.. sorry doesn’t cut it Sam, that… I swear I so knew you would tell me that you wanted me, you and Megan to be together… I was just waiting for you to say that on the phone that night. I had dreamt up all of these plans for us and then you tell me you wanted nothing… you didn’t want me or my plans or anything; It killed me.” said Nick.

“Nick…. you were 19 years old and with your job, you couldn’t just come up and say yeah I’m in love with my best friend, and she has a kid and we’re gonna be a family.. hell to tell you the truth you still can’t.” said Samantha, “And plus.. you’re family is really important to you and you’re parents do not like me. Your mother hasn’t since the moment she found out we were friends again.”

“I can do whatever I want to now.. I can run off and get married and nobody can do a damn thing about it.” said Nick, “And my parents don’t know you, but Leslie does and she loves that song… did you hear it?”

“Yeah.. don’t change the subject..” said Samantha.

“I’m not changing the subject.. it could have worked for us.” said Nick.

“It still can.” said Samantha, “Nick.. I didn’t tell Megan to ask you to be her daddy… I wouldn’t ever do that. She asked that out of her own free will.. I never said nothing about it to her except when I asked her is that what she really wanted and she told me yes… and just…” as she started to cry more, “I swear it’s fate that we met back up right before senior year started and it was fate that we met back up at the funeral.. and then the song Nick, it’s fate.”

“I don’t believe in fate anymore.. I stopped beliving in that when you chose being alone over me.” said Nick.

“I wish you’d stop saying that.” said Samantha, “You make it sound so bad.”

“You know what, it is bad Samantha! Dammit.. I was in love with you and you just throw me to the curb like I’m a peice of trash, I have a fucking right to make it sound so bad!” yelled Nick who was getting upset as Samantha started to cry even more.

“I’m sorry..” said Samantha crying.

“Don’t say that, damn it.. I hate it when you say that!” said Nick who was angry.

“I’m…” said Samantha.

“No don’t!” said Nick, “Just…. what do you want now, just say it alright, we’re just gonna lay it all out on the line tell me everything…”

“What do you mean?” asked Samantha, “I don’t like you yelling like that.”

“Why remind ya of Jake… I’m so sorry but atleast I do have a right to be pissed.. so say everything you want me to know right now.” said Nick when there was a pause on the line, “Well?”

“You know when I said that I loved you in the elevator.. I do love you but I just didn’t realize it was that kind of love until you were gone from me, it’s like I took you for granted and you weren’t there and that’s when I realized how much I really loved you.” said Samantha as she started coughing from being upset.

“And…” said Nick, “Come on you know there’s more, just say it….. I wanna hear you say it.”

“I made a mistake that’s what you want to hear isn’t it?” asked Samantha.

“Thank you..” said Nick, “About god damn time you say it…”

“I’m sor.. just… Nick… just everytime something always brings us together… that day we met up at the school…. then the elevator.. that brought us together and then the funeral… and the song Nick, god just think about all of those things, things keep bringing us together so why don’t we just stop fate for a minute and do it ourselves?” asked Samantha, “Are you going to break Megan’s heart and never see us again because you know if we dont get this settled tonight we’ll never be able to see each other again, we won’t be able to face each other.”

“Don’t use Megan as an excuse.” said Nick, “Don’t use her like that.”

“I’m not Nick, god…. because if we’re not together for good after this, we will never be able to face each other, there’s no way you can come here without everything being uptight and Megan will know it Nick, she’s smart.” said Samantha, “So… I’m going to give you the choice now…. do you want me and Megan or do you want nothing?” as she tried to stop crying.

“Oh no you’re not doing this to me.” said Nick.

“It’s a simple question.. all or nothing… there’s only two choices.” said Samantha when she didn’t hear anybody say anything, “Nick, you still there?”

“I can’t answer that…” said Nick.

“Then you know how I feel being put on the spot…. but I want an answer.. would you rather nothing, nobody but yourself… or do you want me and Megan and everything else?” asked Samantha as Nick covered his face, leaning over.

“I can’t answer it right now.” said Nick, “I can’t I just.. I don’t want to answer it right now.” as Samantha started to cry again.

“Okay, bye..” said Samantha as she hung up, throwing the phone acorss the living room. She layed down on the sofa, pushing her face into the sofa, crying.

“Uhh she hung up…….” Nick thought as he cut his phone off, “God…. she loves me… shit…” as he put a pillow over his face, “Damn….” as he threw the pillow across the room and hit his head back against the wall, closing his eyes.

A little bit later, Megan walked downstairs to see Samantha asleep on the sofa from where she had cried herself to sleep.

“Mommy..” said Megan as she tried to tap her on the shoulder, “Mommy…”

“You’re up from you’re nap?” asked Samantha.

“Yes mommy, can we call and talk to Nick please?” asked Megan.

“He’s busy today baby.” said Samantha, “Plus it’s night over there. He’s probably asleep.”

“Oh, we can wake him up.” said Megan.

“Um no baby… let him sleep…” said Samantha as Megan climbed on the sofa with her, cuddling up next to her as Samantha put her arm around her.

“Why hasn’t he called?” asked Megan.

“I don’t know.” said Samantha as she wanted to cry again.

“He doesn’t love me anymore?” asked Megan.

“No, he loves you.. he’s just busy Meggy… he’s over there in Europe that’s all the way across the ocean singing for all those people.” said Samantha.

“Ohh…” said Megan, “I miss him.”

“I know you do.” said Samantha, “I do too.”

“Do you like Nick mommy?” asked Megan.

“Yeah, I like him a lot.” said Samantha, “I love him.”

“Mommy you love Nick?” asked Megan.

“Yes baby.. I do.” said Samantha, “I told him but.. I think I ran him away…”

“Why mommy?” asked Megan.

“Uhh.. it’s a long story, by the time I finish telling ya, you’ll be in high school.” said Samantha, “Let’s take another nap.”

“Okay..” said Megan as she closed her eyes and they both went to sleep.