Chapter 15

“Sam.. don’t get mad..” said Nick as Samantha walked back in the kitchen as Nick turned around to look at her.

“I have the right to get mad alright, I made a mistake and you don’t wanna talk about it. So.. I’m going to my room, and I’m sure Megan will let you know when she’s awake. Enjoy your stay.” said Samantha as she started to walk upstairs and realized that she was being a bitch. She didn’t have a right to be a bitch. It’s her fault they weren’t together anyway and she hurt Nick.

“I’m fucking it up yet again..” she thought as she ran upstairs and walked into her room.

Nick stood there in the kitchen, teary-eyed, because he wanted to talk about it but he just didn’t know what to say. It’d been two years and he still wasn’t over it. It killed him everytime he heard “Rain” and it almost killed him singing it for Megan.

“She’s made it on her own just like she wanted…” he thought as he looked over on the refridgerator to see a picture that Megan had drawn and he smiled.

“Maybe we should talk..” Nick thought as he walked out of the kitchen and was about to walk upstairs when his cell phone rung, “Shit..” he thought as he took it out of the side of his pocket.

“Hello?” asked Nick.

“Hey Nick.. got a question for ya..” said Kevin.

“Uh oh..” said Nick, “Shoot..” as he sat down on the bottom of the stairs.

“What’s blonde, blue eyes, tall, and smart as a whip?” asked Kevin as Nick looked confused.

“Aaron?” asked Nick.

“You.” said Kevin as Nick really looked confused.

“Huh?” asked Nick.

“Kristin said that Amber told her and Leighanne that you went to St. Augustine to visit Samantha and Megan.” said Kevin, “Thank you god you went.”

“Oh shit.. Amber told them that, god what did they tell her?” asked Nick as he held his head down.

“I’m not sure, but Nick, work it out with them up there, please do.” said Kevin.

“And you know, exactly two years ago you were telling me to send them home.” said Nick.

“Yeah.. so how’s Megan, how’s Samantha doing up there?” asked Kevin.

“She’s doing damn good Kev.. she’s got a condo on the beach, a brand new PT Cruiser, a great job… she’s done good for herself.” said Nick, “And Megan, oh my god , she saw me, she started screaming. She calls us the Street Boys and she’s Britney’s number one fan. She’s just so smart man.” as Kevin started to laugh.

“Man..” said Kevin laughing, “We’re gonna have to get them to a show and see her man.” as Samantha stood at the top of the stairs listening to Nick.

“She’d love it… she’s just… Kevin man, you just wouldn’t believe that little baby that we babysitted when D took Sam out that time is like this little girl that goes around singing “Opps I Did It Again”, she’s just she’s not even 3 and she’s like a freakin’ 6 year old man.” said Nick laughing.

“So how are things with you and Sam?” asked Kevin.

“She keeps wanting to talk and I don’t want to.” said Nick.

“You’re not ready?” asked Kevin.

“Kevin, you know how bad she hurt me when she told me she’d rather have nothing than be with me. That killed me man and it took me so long to get over that and hell I’m still not over that or her.” said Nick as Samantha looked in shock, “Just being here with her and Megan today and seeing them together. It makes me realize what she fucked up on and what we could have had.”

“Are you going to try to get her back?” asked Kevin.

“No, I’m not gonna try to get her back Kevin, she hurt me man…I don’t want that again.” said Nick, “Plus there’s Amber.”

“Nick you barely know Amber.” said Kevin.

“I know I don’t know Amber that well but that don’t mean that we can’t get to know each other.” said Nick.

“Yeah and well you just said it yourself, you’re not over Samantha, how you gonna do that Nick, I’ve tried it myself in my own relationships, it can’t be done.” said Kevin.

“Kevin I don’t wanna talk about how I feel about Samantha right now, I just don’t okay.” said Nick, “I’m going home tonight.. so I’ll talk to you later.”

“Alright man… later.” said Kevin.

“Later..” said Nick as he hung up his cell phone, sticking it on the side of his pocket. He sat there holding his head down and holding his hands together when he saw a shadow on the wall infront of him and he looked back to see Samantha standing there.

“How long have you been there?” asked Nick.

“I just walked up.” said Samantha as she sat down at the top of the steps, “Nick… I know you don’t wanna talk about what happened with us…”

“Depends on what you talking about..” said Nick as he sat there with his back to her, “If you’re talking about what happened in the elevator that night, that was beautiful, but if you’re talking about what happened a week later, hell no I don’t wanna talk about it so don’t even bring it up.”

“That was beautiful.” said Samantha.

“Just shut up Sam.” said Nick, “I don’t wanna get into it alright because I will leave and then you’ll have to tell Megan I left and why I left.”

“I’m sorry..” said Samantha as she sat there.

“God dammit! Don’t say that Sam!” said Nick who was getting angry.

“Nick, you’re not going to come in my house and yell at me alright. All I want to do is talk and just because you don’t want to doesn’t mean you don’t have to yell at me. I haven’t had anybody yell at me in over 2 years and I’m not going to start again now.” said Samantha as she stood up.

“I won’t yell okay, just don’t say that you’re sorry again.” said Nick.

“Okay.” said Samantha, “Okay.”

“Okay.” said Nick as Megan walked out of her room and Samantha looked over at her.

“Mommy is Nick still here?” asked Megan.

“Yep there he is.” said Samantha as Megan ran down the stairs and jumped in his arms.

“Oh damn she hops too.” said Nick laughing.

“Damn is a bad word.” said Megan.

“Yeah I know.” said Nick laughing, “Um Sam, can I take Megan shopping or something maybe?”

“Sure, it’ll give me some time alone and to think.” said Samantha as Nick smiled.

“Okay, can I get the carseat out and put it in my car for the trip?” asked Nick.

“Take the eclipse, there’s one in there also.” said Samantha, “The keys are over there.”

“Okay.” said Nick, “Come on Meggy..”

“That’s what my mommy calls me Nick.” said Megan as Nick looked back at Samantha as they started out the door, “Bye mommy!”

“Bye baby!” said Samantha as Nick closed the door and Samantha sat back down and smiled.

“God… why can’t I have this for always.. it could have been this if I just didn’t fuck everything up and had to be independent…. I don’t think I want to be independent anymore….” she thought as she looked around, “Yeah… I’m gonna have to make him thinkin.. I wasn’t gonna resort to that but he’s gonna have to be nice to me before the end of the day.” as she got up and walked into her room.