Chapter 30

“Why the fuck are you telling me no? Don’t you wanna give Megan a family??” asked Jake as Samantha pushed him away and he walked back up to her, slapping her across the face.

“Do you honestly think I wanna marry someone who does this to me?” asked Samantha.

“Oh well fuck, I’m sorry, go run to Nick, Sam, go on, he’s done so fucking much for you, just go, get out… go to him.” Said Jake as Samantha stood there crying, “Go Sam, run to Nick, you did at Thanksgiving go now, because if you go, you’ll go without Megan.”

“No..” said Samantha.

“Yes.. you think I’m gonna let my daughter go with someone like you. Someone who wants her to grow up in a house with her parents who aren’t even married, probably because her mother wants some little boy…” said Jake as Samantha looked at him.

“I never said I wanted Nick! I never said I didn’t want you! I just don’t want to marry you, can’t you understand that or are you two fucking dumb?” yelled Samantha as Jake pushed her against the wall and she slid down it crying.

“What’s the matter, did you hurt yourself?” asked Jake as Samantha looked up at him.

“You did…” said Samantha.

“No.. I didn’t, you made me do it.” Said Jake as he walked up and picked the ring up. He walked over to her, grabbing her arm and lifting her up, “Here you put this ring on. We’re getting married…” as he put the ring on her finger.

“No we’re not.” Said Samantha as Jake hit her again.

“Yes we are..” said Jake as he walked into the bedroom as Samantha stood there crying. She walked over and blew the candles out, holding her arm from where he he had hit her. She walked over to the sofa and sat down, curling up, laying her head on the arm over the chair, crying as Jake walked back out of the bedroom.

“And don’t even think about calling Nick..” said Jake as he threw her a pillow and blanket and slammed the bedroom door. Samantha grabbed the pillow, hugging up to it and started to cry even more.

A little bit later, Jake walked back out to see her there crying.

“Sam.. I’m sorry…” said Jake as he walked in front of the sofa and kneeled down in front of her, “I’m sorry…”

“No you’re not.” Said Samantha as she looked up at him, “If you were you wouldn’t do this..”

“It’s my temper, baby, I’m sorry… I just had it set in my mind that you would say yes and then you didn’t, I’m sorry… I’m so sorry.. are you okay?” asked Jake as Samantha looked away, “Sam, answer me please…”

“You said after Thanksgiving that you wouldn’t do this anymore because we would have Megan and that you wouldn’t do it and look what you did tonight.” Said Samantha.

“I’m sorry, I just I want us to be together forever… and that’s why I got so mad.” Said Jake.

“How do you except me to want to marry someone who does this?” asked Samantha.

“I won’t anymore, I promise.” Said Jake.

“What is it in that ‘N Sync song.. promises never last forever…. They always get broken Jake.” Said Samantha.

“N Sync?” said Jake as he started to laugh a little, “What happened to Backstreet?”

“Don’t worry about that… just.. If you ever do that again I promise I’m gone and you can’t keep me here, and that’s a promise that will be kept.” Said Samantha as she got up and walked into the bedroom as Jake sat down on the floor and looked around.

That night, Samantha stayed in their bedroom and Jake slept on the sofa, got up and went to work the next morning and didn’t say anything to each other. The next day, Jake’s mom had just brought Megan back to Samantha and had left, but she was concerned when she saw Samantha.

Samantha had a bruise on the side of her face and bruises just like the print of Jake’s hands on her arms, but she wore long sleeves to cover them up. She just couldn’t cover up her face and Jake’s mom noticed it, but didn’t say anything about it.

That day after lunch, Samantha had just gotten Megan asleep after giving her a bottle and she sat down watching “Young and the Restless” and decided to call Nick, but she kept hesitating until finally the phone rung and she looked at it. She was afraid to answer it until finally she did.

“Hello?” asked Samantha answering the phone.

“Sup baby doll?” asked Nick as Samantha started to laugh.

“Hey, nothing. I just got Megan down for a nap.” Said Samantha, “What about you?”

“Notta… so.. how was the big Valentine’s Day? I didn’t get a call last night but I went out with this chick but like ya know.. ain’t shit gonna happen there.” Said Nick as Samantha laughed.

“It was okay, so did she speak English?” asked Samantha.

“Yes, and she’s British..” said Nick talking in a British accent, “So what’s up, how did it go last night?”

“He asked me to marry him.” Said Samantha.

“Uhh.. you told him no right?” asked Nick as Samantha looked around, “Right?”

“Not really….” Said Samantha, “Well I did at first but then I guess you could say I gave him.”

“Sam… you don’t need to marry him.” Said Nick.

“Nick.. don’t start alright, just don’t. I know alright, I know.. but it’s just so hard to tell him no.” said Samantha.

“He didn’t hit you again did he?” asked Nick.

“No.. no he didn’t.” said Samantha.

“You’re not lying are you?” asked Nick.

“No…. I’m not.” Said Samantha.

“Sam, Damn, you can’t marry him. I mean I know that he’s Megan’s father and all but that don’t matter. Hell it’s the 90’s you don’t have to be married or even with your baby’s daddy and damn I sound like a rap song and hell it’s 1999, but still you don’t have to be with him. You’ve got that job at the station and you’re making your own money and you can make it alone, and if not, I’ll help you, I just don’t like you with him. Not after that stunt at Thanksgiving.. I don’t. I don’t want you to marry him.” Said Nick.

“Nick, it’s not your decision..” said Samantha.

“Yeah and from the looks and sounds of it, it’s not yours either.” Said Nick, “I know he did something to you last night, I just have this feeling and I’m telling you.. if you don’t get out… you’re gonna really get hurt and I don’t want you to Sam because you’re my best friend and I care about you and if he does something to you, then I’m gonna gave to kick his ass.”

“Nick, it won’t.” said Samantha as she put her hand on her head, “Listen I’ve got a headache okay…”

“Okay girl.. you call me okay.” Said Nick.

“You know I will..” said Samantha, “Bye.”

“Bye.” Said Nick as he hung up the phone and stood there backstage as he handed his phone to the security guard to hold, “You ever wanted to kick someone’s ass so bad you can feel how bad they’re gonna feel when you’re done with them?”

“You talkin’ to me?” asked Howie as he walked by and Nick nodded his head yes.

“How do you think I feel about you when you pick at me all the time?” asked Howie as he started to laugh and walked off and Nick rolled his eyes as he walked off.

Jake had kept his promise to Samantha and didn’t go “crazy” anymore. He hadn’t even raised his voice or his hand to her, but there was a lot of tension between them until finally Samantha gave in to him.

A few weeks later, Samantha started back work at the radio station. Jake’s mom watch Megan while she worked which was always the morning shit from 6-10 and then she did various other things at the station before she went to pick up Megan and head back to their apartment where she did what any good little fiancée would, cook dinner so it would be all nice and ready when Jake came home.

Not too much longer, Samantha gave in again, and her and Jake were finally together for real, but she hated every minute of it. It reminded her of what he did to her on Prom night, but what was she suppose to tell him. No? He would probably do what he did to her on Valentine’s Day and she didn’t want that to happen again. She didn’t have anywhere else to go. Her dad had deserted her, she didn’t have any close friends besides Jake and Nick. She knew she couldn’t do it on her own, and she didn’t want to rely on Nick or anybody else, so she just stayed there.

It was now the middle of May. Samantha had just came home from work and picking up Megan from Jake’s mom. Nick and the guys were in New York because their new album, “Millennium”, was going to be released the next day and Nick wanted Samantha up there, but she knew Jake wouldn’t let her.

“Uhh…” Samantha thought as she walked into their apartment that day after lunch, holding Megan, “Almost time for Teletubbies.. uhh like you know what they are anyway, damn you’re only 4 months old.” When the phone rung.

“Stay here a sec..” said Samantha as she walked into the bedroom, laying Megan down on the bed on her back as she picked up the phone and sat down beside her, making sure she didn’t roll off, “Hello?”

“Pack that shit up and come on.” Said Nick as Samantha looked confused.

“Nick, what did AJ give you to drink?” asked Samantha as Nick started to laugh.

“Nothing, Jake there, he’s at work right?” asked Nick.

“Yeah, he is, he’ll be home about 5:30 or so..” said Samantha, “I actually just got…”

“No time to talk, you can tell me about your day when you get here.” Said Nick.

“Get where?” asked Nick.

“You’re flying to New York City. I got you’re a first class seat and the plan leaves in 45 minutes so pack that shit up and get Megan all nice and pretty and you’re coming here.” Said Nick.

“Nick.. Jake would freak.” Said Samantha.

“Yeah well… not if you’re not there when he comes home, I’ll be there when we both come home and he won’t do shit, so are you with me? I want you here tomorrow.” Said Nick.

“Umm…” said Samantha as she looked at Megan, “Sure, yeah…..” while she picked up Megan and put her in her crib, “Yeah okay.”

“Alright start packing, I’ll call back in a few.” Said Nick as he giggled and hung up.

“Alright you stay right here.. don’t smile at me like that you stay right here in your crib and I’m gonna be right back alright…” said Samantha as Megan smiled and she started packing when the phone rung and she walked over and picked it up, “Hello?”

“Hey, you ready for NYC-baby.” Said Nick giggling as Samantha started to laugh.

“Damn Nick you just called…. Uhh Yep, I’m about to pack us up and we’re gonna be on our way. Damn it, you won’t come to us so we have to come to you.” Said Samantha.

“Yeah yeah yeah… well hurry up. Kevin and I’ll be at the airport incognito to pick ya up…” said Nick.

“Alright, can’t wait.. so I’ll see ya in a few hours.” Said Samantha.

“Alright, I’ll have a surprise for ya!” said Nick.

“Uh oh.. I’ll see ya then, bye!” said Samantha.

“Bye!” said Nick as Samantha hung up and looked over to see Megan peeking through the side of the crib.

“Guess who that was? That was Uncle Nick and we’re gonna go see him.” Said Samantha, talking in baby talk as Megan laughed a little, “Yes we are…” as she continued to pack. Finally, a few minutes later she looked around as she put her hands on her hips, “Uhh I think that’s everything!” as she put her backpack on with her and Megan’s things in it and picked up Megan, putting her in her carrier.

“This is annoying.. I have to have to much crap for you, do you know that…” said Samantha as Megan smiled as she picked up the other bag, “Okay the stroller is the car… so.. okay this is good..” as she started out of their bedroom to see Jake walking in as he looked over at them.